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Painter

I use words to paint my pictures
Each sentence a swish of the brush, blending without hesitation,
Like a master, who expertly refines and forms his subject.
Master at his art, yet he cannot express his heavenly visions that appear
So bright, and detailed, vivid with colors not from the rainbow, that no mortal can describe.
How then, am I to describe to you the complex swirl and storm of emotion that I feel?
How can one paint a scene in colors that others cannot see?
How can one describe their emotions when no such words exist?
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