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Anxiety

         Exploding out, atom by atom breaking away. In that moment, I cease to exist physically. A dark numbness and tingling, keeping me from moving. Its like my body turns to static waves. Screaming in silence.

Sorrow, but not sorrow. Sadness with anxiety, tears with agitation. Scratching, scratching, scratching.

The sound of static, coming closer, getting louder.

Not eating. Picking at my food.

Focusing on breathing. Each breath harder, more forced. Sucking in the air, your throat closing up like a straw.

Fighting to keep the static away. All concentration aimed at continuing the function of feeble lungs.

The heart running with adrenaline.

The static moving. Moving to the face, moving to the chest. Taking control and stopping  all feeling, all capability of movement, freezing, stopping.

Everything shutting down. Shutting down. Shutting. Down.

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